Excepts From a Conversation...
I was chatting with a friend on MSN and... well it's old school blog material:
"Back home, my friends started treating me like I was a scumbug. It got to the point where I'd be introduced to people with a warning. It hurt. I wanted to come back to Fredericton where I was more known as a lovable doofus. But people here are changing their views of me too."
"It's a stench, a stain I can't ride myself of. I thought I found hapiness and confidence in myself for the first time. Maybe I did change. But after seeing how the people I care about react to it... But I don't want to go back, either."
"What hurts most of all is when someone like you, who up until the frat party night, seemed like a big supporter of mine, constantly asking me to come back to Fredericton, becomes distant from me because of something I said or did. And then the night I try to make ammends, I again say something stupid and offensive."
"I know you've forgiven me for it. But it doesn't change the fact that, in more than just your case, I can see I've changed by the way people react to me now."
"It might be them. It might be me."
"I'm sorry to just dump this on you. You're not my therapist. It just boiled out. It's on the surface of my mind with a lot of other things."
My apartment is leaking and cold.
I already have an assignment over a week late.
Everyone else has turned my little crush on Aimee into something bigger than it is. You're getting my hopes up and I'm the who has to deal with the fall.
I also want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with me and I shouldn't be with anyway.
I still don't believe RAGE is being run properly.
My back pain is getting severe. I don't want to think about what I need to do, or stop doing, because of it.
I go out once a week, usually on Friday. I have a total of 12 hours of class a week. I do nothing else the rest of the time. I'm extremely bored.
Those idiots at Student Financial Service still havn't got my loan straightened out.
I just... what I came looking for isn't here. At least I'll finish school.
