March is as cold as January...I miss the temporary warm February brought.
I'm scared. I'm afraid to spend money. I have little left in my account. The rest of my loan to come in isn't even worth a month's rent. My rent check for March will bounce. If it wern't for a $50 certificate at Sobey's, I'd be afraid to go buy food. I don't want to pay my cell phone bill. I dread recieving my cable/Internet bill. I have an insanely high credit card bill to pay. I have too much pride to ask my parents for money. Especially after all the arguments with my father over it.
I wish I had never slept with Jenn. That's nothing against Jenn. I think she's an amazing girl: sweet, beautiful, and fun to be with. And it's not because of how everyone else reacted. Most people have gotten over it, and if they havn't, I don't feel they have much justification to be angry. No, the reason I regret it is the turmoil it's putting her through. I'm sure she'd be going through enough in her post-Jeremie time without me adding to it. And now I'm pretty sure she's even soured on me. That hurts. No matter what she wanted to do, I just wanted to respect it and try to be her friend. But I guess it's not working. I can't really blame her. It can be awkward being around people you've slept with. I just wish things could have worked out better. She's a great girl.
The real anwser was 11. But keep in mind that's since 1999. That averages less than two a year. And most were one to two times only. In fact, the only repeats were Jenn (2), Toby (2), Meaghan (3), and Myah (lost count, but maybe 12?). Add that up and it's maybe a 26 lifetime total! Over 6 years! That's just over 4 times a year. Now you tell me... How can anyone deserve this reputation I've somehow found myself with by having sex FOUR TIMES A YEAR? Think about it.
