There's always someone else...

Never has anyone ever looked upon me and saw everything they need in a person. Never has anyone ever seen me as their be all and end all. I'm always 'will do for now' or 'maybe but I don't think so'. There's always someone else they'd rather.

This goes back all my life. I can remember these instances back to high school. Every single time I put my heart of the line. Every. Single. Time. I have never been better than a current relationship (understandable). I have never been better than a previous relationship. I have beenbetter than a possible relationship. I have been better than an improbable fantasy. There's always someone else they'd rather.

I'm refering strictly to matters of the heart. Not sex. I have topped many in that respect. But in the end that doesn't matter. There's always someone else they'd rather.

This isn't limited to women. With guys, I have never been someone's best friend. I'm always a good friend or one of a few best friend. But I have never been someone's absolute best friend. No matter who might claim that title from me, I've never claimed it from them. There's always someone else they'd rather.  ¶ 10:20 PM